cerita bengong.... hehehe

pergh..... lame x on9.... sori la blog ku.... mesti ko kesunyian tanpa posting..... mana x nyer .... kbelakangan nie bukan aku x on9 cume aku x der idea nk post aper kat blog aku nie....lagi2 bnyk sgt bnda aku dapat smpai aku x dapat emosi aku x bper stabil........macam2 bnda aku kna trima..... smpai aku x der mood nk blogging takut2 lain aku post.... lain jadinyer......tp tu la kehidupan..... sesakit sepedih seluka mana pon....kna trima .....kena teruskan.... jgn putus asa.... sbb tuhan sengaja menduga untuk tgok iman kter....well x kesah la cmner.... yg penting jgn hilang senyuman dulu..... n kna sentiasa happy..... hehehe....k k.... pasal post nie.... aku sebenarnya x der idea pon nk tulis aper..... tp alang2 aku teringat pasal mimpi aku yang sgt jelas ..... apa kater aku cter pasal mimpi tu.... time aku tdo kol 2.00 pg smpai kol 7.45 pg....so ni la start mimpi aku yang bengong tu....hmmm aku namakan mimpi aku ni as "ulik mayang hutan"..... so nk tau lagi pasal nie.... kna la truskan membaca..... hehehe

kisah nyer mimpi ku ni bermula disatu masa..... aku join program meredah hutan.....dalam mimpi la.... hutan mana .... tah ... aku sndri pon x tau..... rase hutan kat KL jer kot..... main tibai jer..... lantak la....hehe....so waktu nk masuk tu.... x der la dorg pesan aper2..... cume gtau pasal puteri ulik mayang....sbb ada org datang situ x penah kuar n ada org datang situ balik cam kena pkul.... alasan dan sebab jadi cmtu.... x dgr ckp jer..... zzzz......so bedal jer la masuk tanpa segan silu mahupun malu2..... kui3.... so aku dan beberapa geng peneroka pon masuklah hutan tu.... jalan punye jalan punye jalan..... smpai la kat satu kawasan simpang.... simpang pertama pergi naik keatas bukit..... satu lagi straight.... dorg ckp x leh naik atas.... nnti kena sumpah pendek umur..... so aku pon x nk la naik.... nk jalan straight..... tp tibe2 time aku nk jalan ..... ada lak sowg pkcik tu turun dari jalan nk ker bukit tu smbil bawak beg guni kat tgn.....ngutip taik klawak kot..... aku x tau la apa dier kutip.... yg konfem time melintas aku.... dier ngutip taik burung....wat baja kot..... so konklusi nyer.... instructor aku nie btol ker.... kna sumpah pendek umur ker.... x pon.... pkcik tu siap sengih2 lagi kutip taik burung..... ker ko yg wat cter ..... takut nk naik bukit la tu....zzzz.... so truskan perjalanan.... aku smpai la satu kawasan berbatu lak.... kali ni .... ada pesanan jgn pnjat lebih dari batu besar..... n kitorang pon berehat..... so time nk blah .... dorg nk main nyorok2..... kejadah pa dorg main nie.... aku pon x tau.... yg konfem aku join.... so naik la aku smpai atas dkat2 batu tu..... nyorok.... n bile sume org dah kumpul.... aku still dorg x perasan..... sebab lame sgt .... n x tahan kena gigit semut.... aku pon trun la.... n time ni la sowg mamat lembut kena sampuk..... mmber aku pon ... syakir nama dier.... org panggil tebe...... mula la menyanyi lagu ulik mayang..... budak2 yang ada kat situ tgok la mamat tu .... wat muke plik.... aku lak dah nmpak ..... trus la jerit .... oi mamat tu kna smpuk tu..... tp tah .... budak2 tu sume blur semacam jer..... so aku pon lari la.....x nk kna la katakan...... so kes bongok start la time ni.... masa lari ni.... si mamat lembut nyanyi..... tah naper aku leh ingat..... so aku tulis la lagu nyer yer.... enjoy2.... oo luper.... setiap kali dier nyanyi.... aku ada nympuk.... bca yer..... hehehe
(reference @ aku nyampuk time nyanyi si kna sampuk)

ulik mayang di ulik ulik dgn jala.... jemala.....
ada budak memakan buah.... langgar kate yang dikate...
@ mana ada aku makan buah .... aku kna gigit semut ada la.... tuduh2 lak
putri satu berbaju serong...... puteri dua mengejar dier
@ x ya kejar aku.... aku x ske main kejar2 nie....
putri tiga bersubang gading putri empat x nk mengalah
@blaja la mengalah baik tuk kesihatan ko tu sengal....
putri lima berlari lari puteri enam hendak bercinta
@ pa jadah ko ckp bnda ni .... gelepor apa ko..... abis la aku
putri tujuh bercinta dgn tiang..... ckup cinta si tuan putri....
@ tiang lampu kat sebelah ni ada ha.... ko ni nafsu apa cinta ngan tiang ....

so smpai sni jer.... tibe2 lak putri yang menyampuk member aku tu berlari spantas turbo.... pergh kalah aku.... n sempat la dier tumbuk aku kat bahu...... pastu dier yg kena smpuk tu ckp.... jgn main2 tumbuk nie.... john paul nyer tumbukan tu..... tah saper la john paul.... yg konfem x sakit pon.....n sbb aku dah give up berlari.... aku pon berhenti la n aku pon kater.... aaaa lantakla korg nk wat aper.... aku x bersalah pon.... n zaapp..... aku ngun dari tdo....sengal2....hahaha....

well tu jer.... ni pon dah panjang berjela..... penat aku.... hahaha... mimpi aku tambah2 plik la nmpaknye....

I don't know

it happen so fast.... just a few seconds .... and those words came out ... i don't even know what to say..... it was like a blade slicing n piercing my soul..... its so hurt that i can't even breath...... the only thing that came out to my mind was...... why?..... why it is so easy ...... just a few days and a few words..... everything change..... swear to God...... at that moment ......i want to cry but.... this tears would never flow..... it stays n never drop..... the thing that left to cover up this mess ...... was a fake smile..... such a DUMBASS.... I'm lying to my feelings ...... i can't believe no matter how hard i tried...... the distance never change..... i admit..... i can't stop thinking of her even for a day..... the words letting you go..... it is so hard to swallow..... dying in love with her..... truthfully and honestly..... i don' care about the past..... the present time..... it's all that matters...... i know she have someone ..... n i do respect that she wants to continue with it ..... for that.... i seal my heart away..... n keep supporting her every time she's feeling sad and hurt....... but that day..... everything change..... a guy came to her heart...... and she fall for it ..... she willingly to start a new love..... i don't know how to express my feelings that time..... so confused..... anger....devastated..... disappointed......sad.... i simply can express it.... why can she easily choose him although i was there ..... i guess..... i'm just a friend..... n the highest position i can be in her heart is a best friend.... it was painful to bear with..... but for the happiness of the girl that i love most...... i said to her...... go on... cherish your love with him...... but deep inside my heart..... i want to say..... "no.... why can't u start a new love with me..... u know my feelings don't you...... u know how deep my love for you...... " but what can be done..... sometime love need someone to sacrifice....... i think thats the reason why my heart words didn't reach out..... n that night.... after praying n doing some self reflection...... during my sleep..... i fought with myself...... n little by little.... i lost some memories of her...... i can't bear the pain..... the pain that she won't choose my .... though I'm close to her..... maybe ..... its because I'm like this..... or maybe cause interest..... who knows..... left alone for a while..... n the next night.... my friends came to my house n ask me..... do you still love her.... i don't know how they found out..... i never spoken about it to anyone.....but i think they realize it..... as I'm totally different that day..... like lost something so precious..... but never thought they can predict that it was connecting with her...... damn they're good..... zzzz..... anyway.... that night.... my friend told me everything about that guy.... don't know how to respond to the story..... speechless..... true or false.....aaarggh~~~ i dont want to tell her about this..... but im really concern about it.... i dont want her to cry at the end of the day...... its hard to accept when seeing it...... so i give her some clues n hint n a short description...... n let her think about it...... its up to her to choose which one to trust...... I'm sorry bout this.... u can hate me.... u can curse me.... u can do anything even killing me.....im willing to accept it...... but please..... understand that.... I'm doing this because i love u..... so much that a single tear leaves a scar that keeps bleeding...... I'm so sorry to love u......